God is Good

I think that some people are afraid of God. God is definitely one to be feared but not for any of the reasons that most people think. I believe that some people go through life afraid of God's judgment but in a paranoid way, not a righteous way. He sits on a throne, with a powerful gaze, awaiting missteps so he can condemn or punish. That's not who He is though.

I think a lot about God. I think about what makes Him laugh, what makes Him sad, what makes Him proud. My friend J.J. said it simple and sweet, "He's like a good dad". When I think of God like that then it's not hard to love Him with my whole heart. My own father and I have had our rough patches but overall, he's my father, and I love him. My earthly father can laugh at me, be proud of me, hug me when I'm down and show me that I am in his thoughts and dreams. My heavenly father can do all of those things too, and I love that I understand that now.

Last week I was walking down the stairs, in the dark, at 5am and I was very very tired. I wasn't paying attention and I just missed the last two stairs. Instead of driving to work at 6am I ended up driving myself to the emergency room. A few hours later I was informed that I was broken, getting crutches, and following up with an orthopedic surgeon to assess the damage. When I drove myself to the ER I had the radio on and the first song I heard was Hallelujah by Heather Williams. I started cracking up at the lyrics. In the midst of my pain and frustration, God met me where I was to let me know that He's still here and He has a sense of humor as good as mine. Of course it is! He gave me my sense of humor.

Here's what He said to me Thursday morning through the lyrics on the radio:

Jesus, please come, please come today
Heal me, hear me, be near me I pray
I have fallen so far, flat on my face
I’m in need of Your grace today
I stumble and fall, but in spite of it all
Your love always stays the same
Hallelujah

I was giggling like crazy at that. I literally said aloud, in my car, "that's great, God, you're hysterical". It is funny though, how God works. As a result of my broken foot, I can't drive, I also can't work until I have surgery and recovery a bit from it. God is working through broken bones. Seriously, He is HUGE and will use anything for His glory. I have all this free time and it's nice to spend it in The Word, reading and relaxing. I think it was God's way of telling me to slow down.

My broken foot already got my best friend to church for the first time in 9 years. I can't wait to see what other beautiful work God does through it. Even though this injury is far from beautiful...

Spiral fracture-Broken in 4 places